Who I am

Hello friends. Welcome back to 30 Days of Gratitude. Today I am thankful that I know who I am through God. I am His child and all that matters is that He is pleased. This has been on my mind a lot lately. On Facebook, I recently shared a meme that said: 'If God is pleased then stop worrying about who isn't.' I enquired that I had just been thinking about this in the text above it. God defines me and gives me purpose. So, if He is pleased, then I should be satisfied. I wrote this in my journal before I even saw that meme and shared it on Facebook:

"Why do I worry about the judgement of others? If someone judges me, what is the worst that could happen? Shouldn't I only worry about what God thinks of me; even if it causes the gaze of others to fall on the back of my head? What other's think of me doesn't define me. What God thinks of me does. Have I just been missing the point this whole time? It's so obvious now, but I was blind to it. It was right in front of my face and I didn't see it. Then again, God was right in front of my face too; back when I did not believe, when I doubted. I had been walking around creation and there is no creation apart from a creator. It was so obvious."

In my journal I often do that. Ask myself questions. Get my mind to think outside of the box. Sometimes that metaphorical box has my mind closed in. It keeps me from having an open mind to what God is telling me. That box is like earthly mentality. The box keeps only the things that we perceive that could be in the realm of possibility inside of it. But the Bible says that God can do things we could never imagine. If that is true and we believe it, why don't we just keep our minds open to perceive the impossible. That could quite possibly be another Ashley analogy born. But that is how I feel sometimes. Like my earthly mind is closed off from some of the things that God is telling me.

I am a child of God. That is my title. That is my number one mission in life; to listen to my Father, to obey Him. That is what defines me. Not judgement from others, not my physical limitations, not my earthly mindset, not my outward looks, not fitting in society's mold. It's all God.

So I am thankful that I now know exactly who I am. I didn't know that before God. My younger self kept asking the same questions: Who am I? Who am I suppose to be? What am I suppose to do with my allotted time? What should I peruse? What am I suppose to believe? How should I act and carry myself? All these questions were holes in my life. I was like a sponge full of holes that was soaking up anything that got near me to fill those holes. Nothing fully did, until I became a child of God. Is that yet another analogy?

Anyway, my friends. I know who I am now. I know what I am suppose to believe and what I am suppose to do with my allotted time. I am thankful for that. I invite you to find something to be thankful for today and to smile. I can smile because I know who I am and what God thinks of me; and that is the only thing that matters.